Once again, I have neglected this poor little blog. I was reading back through my old posts and am just amazed at how God continually works in my life. I'm glad He is such a big God, because it's hard work dealing with me!! If it were anybody else, they'd have given up a LONG time ago.

I am working again. It was such a miracle how it happened - totally, completely, 100% a God thing. He essentially shoved this job in my face and would NOT let me ignore it. I tried! I turned it down. They came back. I have tried to quit. They keep sweetening the deal. For one thing, it's been very hard not to take advantage of the situation. But it has also kept me actively looking for the reasons He wants me here. I have found a few reasons - and I understand them. They are not fun reasons, they have made me very closely examine myself and the way I handle those around me - but I get it.

In 3 weeks, Josh and I are going to California to visit The Master's Seminary. HOLY MOLY. I cannot believe we are actually going. We have been talking about this for a really long time. There is still no guarantee that we will be moving there, but the likelihood goes up every day. I am so very torn with this decision. I am so excited to begin this new journey - I've never lived anywhere else; I've never even vacationed this far away from home before. But also, I will be leaving my family behind. Even if it's only for 2 or 3 years, nobody knows what will happen in that time. Losing Dad has made me so very cautious of taking anybody for granted in my life.

What else? Peyton is so So SO big now. When I look at her sometimes, I really just cannot believe that she is my child.

Ok, well... I'm going to try and continue this blog. What it will turn into, nobody knows. But... everybody keeps telling me to write out my feelings. How therapeutic it is. So I figured I should take another stab at it.